I'VE MOVED!!!

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Left Behind

Those of you feeling like you've been left behind, never fear. My email SUCKS and although I've sent out the emails twice, it isn't working for some reason. Hang in there, you'll get it as soon as I figure out what's up with my outgoing mail.

QueenBee

New Site

Okay, I've emailed everyone who emailed me saying they wanted to keep reading at the new site. Please email me at queenbeeiam@earthlink.net if you want the new site. This site will be removed in a few days.

Thanks,

Queen Bee

All is Good

There aren't details we can share from today's meeting - just that it continues to "look good" for us. Everything was fine. Thank you for your prayers.

I'm considering taking this site offline for a while. For privacy reasons, I just want to make sure we aren't "found" by the birthfamily in this situation. Anyway, one thing I may do is create another site that will be password protected - I know that is a pain, but if you want the address and password, email me and I'll be sure to get it to you. I'm probably being a bit overprotective, but I want my kids safe. I stupidly said something about a blog where they could overhear me and I have no idea if they are computer literate, but it's just not a risk I'm willing to take. So, ya, I'm going to move to a password protected site. Let me know if you want to come along!

Sunday School

Yesterday I took Speedy to church with me. I had no idea how he would do in Sunday School (the nursery) but I carried him to the door and he could see all the kids and toys inside. When I put him down to fill out paperwork, he was trying to open the door and get in. He walked right in and never looked back. I was glad he wasn't upset, but I have to admit I was also a little disappointed that it didn't seem like he would miss me at all! :(

When I went to pick him up, he was standing near the door and watching it intensely. When he saw me, he ran to me with his arms up! So much for not missing me. I almost cried right there in the hallway and I'm sure people would have thought I'm nuts. Afterall, he IS almost two, they must think that surely I've left him in the nursery before. If only they knew.

Anyway, the worker said that he did fine but after about 10 minutes of playing he suddenly realized that I wasn't there and started asking for mommy. But he didn't get upset and cry so I'm glad for that. Anyway, he's so stinkin' cute!

The Princess and the Pee

I love giving Princess her baths and she enjoys them too! It's probably not wise for me to strip her down at the changing table and then carry her bare bottom all the way to the kitchen where her bath chair is, but her little bum is so adorable! And she wouldn't dare pee on me. Or worse. Or would she?

She has peed while I was giving her a bath before but that wasn't such a big deal. Today, I finished her bath and wrapped her up in a cute hooded towel. She's always so happy at this point and looks so darn cute! I was cuddling her to me when all of the sudden my hand (the one that was under her bum) got really warm. I pulled her away from me to realize she'd just peed all over my hand and shirt. Thankfully, there was nothing else coming out of her. She had the sweetest, most innocent look on her face the whole time. But I think she secretly did it on purpose since I had woken her up from a nap. :)

Speedy cracks me up with his "peas" (please) and "tank-you"'s. He was supposed to be laying down for a nap but after 30 minutes I could still hear him talking and playing in his crib. I opened his door and said in a very stern voice, "Speedy, lay down - it's time to go night-night, no more standing up. Lay down and close your eyes and go to sleep!" He layed down, covered up and looked at me with the sweetest little eyes and said, "tank you". I closed the door before I cracked up laughing.

The Visit

Thank you for praying faithfully for us yesterday as we went to our first visit. I know God was with us and after a little initial nervousness, I was completely relaxed. We got to meet birthmom and birthdad, maternal grandmother and paternal grandparents. All went very well.

For privacy reasons, I can't really say much about the visit or the people involved. I will tell you that we feel even better at our chances for adoption based on this visit. The best news is that I got pictures of everyone so I will have them for the kids.

The next big step is a meeting on Tuesday that will give us even more of an idea as to what will happen. So, if I could continue to beg for your prayers, please pray for the meeting this Tuesday at 1pm. Pray for everyone involved - that we will all seek what is best for these precious babies. We are a little apprehensive about this meeting - right now the birthfamily doesn't seem to realize the severity of this situation but I believe that will be made clear at this meeting.

I'll keep you posted as much as I can. Just know that Speedy and Princess are fine - there was really no response at all to the visit from them. Speedy continues to be his hilarious and fun-loving self and Princess is growing by the minute. I can't wait until I can really share pictures of them - they are so beautiful! And so much fun!

I heard Brien talking to Princess last night: "Hi little Princess.....you know, mommy used to be the princess before you came along. Now she's the Queen and you're our little Princess."

Also, when Brien came home from work on Thursday, I brought Speedy outside and I said, "go give daddy a big hug and a kiss"! He ran squealing to Brien and jumped up into his arms. I don't know who was smiling more, Brien or Speedy.

First Visit

Tomorrow we have our first visit with Speedy and Princess' mother. We're excited and nervous and mostly just curious. Pray that God will open our hearts to her and help us share His love by meeting her without judgement. Pray that Speedy will be okay with the visit. Pray that we focus on what is best for the kids and not on how we may be feeling.

We are praying for a positive relationship with their mother. There are so many things we are asking God for, it feels like we are asking for the impossible - for one miracle after another. In Matthew 19:26, Jesus says, "With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible ."NKJV We are claiming that truth as we seek what is best for Speedy and Princess.

God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.

ahhh MEN!

We're trying to teach Speedy to say grace before he eats his meals. I'll say, okay Speedy, it's time to pray....let's thank Jesus for our food before we eat. And he'll put his hands together and say "pway". He babbles a word or two as we go through the "God is good .... God is great" and then he knows right when to say "ahhh MEN" and he throws his little hands in the air. Sometimes half way through the meal, he stops and says again "pway" as he puts his hands together. It's so sweet!

We're also learning some songs. I always sing "Jesus Loves Me" to him as I rock him to sleep, but his favorite is definitely "Old McDonald had a Farm". The only part he sings is "E I E I O" but it comes out as "EEEEE I EEE I EEIIIIIII OOOOOO"! When I was giving him a bath today, I was singing Jesus Loves Me and he was watching me intently. Instead of singing, "yes, Jesus loves me...." I always sing, "Speedy, Jesus loves you...." and when I took a breath he chimed in with "EEEEE I EEEE III EEEEIIIIII OOOO" I guess Old McDonald had Jesus on his farm, too!

Brien and I take turns with Princess - he takes a night then I take a night and so on and so forth. If it is my night to be up with her, then he'll stay awake and feed her at 1opm before putting her back to sleep. Last night, I came in from bible study and he was in the lazy boy with Princess on his chest. I said, "hey, you're supposed to be keeping her awake so she'll sleep better tonight...." he swore she had "just fallen asleep". Then we had this conversation:

Brien: This is the best sleep there is (as he's holding her on his chest and resting his own eyes)
Me: It's so sweet to watch you with her, you've never been very interested in little babies and she is so tiny in your big hands
Brien: I have to get all of this I can....it won't be long before she won't just lay her and snuggle on daddy's chest anymore...
Me: Ya, that's sweet, you should sleep like that all night so I can get some rest, she'll never sleep good in the bassinet after leaving your chest
Brien: Where should I put her down now? The bed is in our room so I wouldn't know where to put her down.
Me: You can put a blanket on the floor and lay her down there
Princess: Waaaaa Waaaaa grunt snort fusss fuss fuss
Brien: Oh baby girl, it's okay. Daddy's not really going to put you down.

Geez. She's just a month old and already has daddy wrapped around her little finger! ha ha ha